Walls, anxiety, cycles and chains

So I stumbled upon a page on facebook called Boggle the Owl today (I recommend you take a look). It is a page where is offers advice about various situations in life and I have to admit that I did cry sometimes.

So with the exception of anxiety which I still relate to entirely, just change the wall of anxiety with a wall of “laziness” (change the words with anxiety with that of the one about being lazy and it still is spot on), these pictures just summarise my struggles and how I feel. There are times when you have bad days and you feel bad enough as it is – sometimes the last thing you need is people reminding you that you’ve made a mess of the day just gone.

As you might have imagined I haven’t had the best of days ever, I didn’t get up until early afternoon so haven’t got much other than the reading I needed to do done but at least I got something done. I’ve been feeling lethargic today and just not great in general physically – a theme which is occurring a lot lately so maybe I should go to the doctors but when I’m not managing to some how bum around I’m genuinely too busy to find the time.

I haven’t had an awful day when it comes to remembering my Heavenly Father and my saviour but as per usual I could have done better. Regret won’t change anything and I have to move on to break the cycles and chains that have held me back. It takes a long time to prepare a wall for knocking it down but once its down it is so liberating, the preparation time can be hard and more often than not painful but if you don’t through the preparation first more damage can be done than good. The thing you have to remember is that no matter how green the grass looks on the other side it will always disappoint you when you get there. Until we get to Heaven that is but that is another discussion for another time.

I have something of a positive attitude today but I do feel down in a way that is hard to explain really and I’m not exactly the most eloquent of people. Moving on to my targets for tomorrow however they are:

• Get into the lab by 10.00 at the latest.
• Remember my God and King throughout the day.

Before I sign off I want to mention a friend who has been on my heart and in my prayers recently because they have and still are going through a hard time at the moment, I got a text off of them telling me that they have finally dealt with some of the issues that have been plaguing them which encouraged and me and I am so grateful to God for being in that situation. It’s amazing and an absolute privilege to see that journey.

God bless

I 0:)